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i love you (copied from life's hell blog)

three simple words, one very deep meaning.. how long can it last? how many times can you say it till your bored of it? how do you know that it is being said to the right person? is it when u'd think about the person all the time? that means if u think a lot about an actor does it mean u LOVE him?
these words were never easy to be said by me.. but now, i've said it soo many times in a day.. these are the only words i want him to hear.. i dont want him to doubt my words.. i know how he feels.. these are just words.. anything is possible.. how can u prove urself? i cant answer dat.. i'm afraid to.. i do not want to bound with my words.. but how to make him realise that i really do love him, n for once i dont just LOVE him, but i'm IN LOVE with him.. it saddens me dat he shares the same boat as me.. not being able to just trust these simple words.. i share the same thoughts as he.. watever he says, i know that it is possible that one day he'll just turn around and say to me, 'those are just words'. and it is possible for me to say it.. as much as i dont want to admit it, everything is possible in life.. wat u feel today may not remain tomorrow.
but it doesnt hurt to believe right? it does actually.. u put ur heart n soul in the words spoken, that when it's gone n left with no meaning, ur heart becomes so empty.. but i want to believe.. i know it's a big risk, n i've been hurt soo many times, but i want to believe in u.. i want this relationship to work.. i want to be next to u thru thick n thin.. i do not want to know HOW'S IT GONNA BE WHEN YOUR NOT AROUND, i dont wanna noe HOW'S IT GONNA BE WHEN YOU FIND OUT THERE WAS NOTHING BETWEEN YOU AND ME .. I dont wanna think about it.. i love u too much.. thinking about it makes me sad.. so i just turn away from the WHAT IF's.. i know its not me, but like i said, i want to believe in ur words. just this one time..
everyday i pray that i'll be the right one for u.. that i wont be the one that causes the pain in ur eyes.. everytime i gaze into ur eyes, i c happiness n sadness.. everytime i say I LOVE U n look into ur eyes, i c that u're happy that sumone loves u, but at the same time u're skeptical of my words.. u're lost in between.. u're not sure whether is it wise to trust these words.. will i be the same as the others.. n d sad part is, i cant answer ur question.. i do not know whether will i b the same as the other girls that have hurt u.. but believe me, i do not want to be on the list..
sometimes when u said that u care n love me, there will be a small voice at the back of my head sayin, it's just words Khairun.. but i push away the thought.. i'm giving u the benifit of the doubt.. i'm trusting u on this too.. we both have to prove to each other that the words that escapes our mouths are not just words.. we have to help each other realise that these words can stregthen our bond..
we have to take sometime, like yesterday, to just talk things out.. understand each other inside out.. for once i want someone to know me inside out.. n i want u to know the real me.. the real Khairun.. but at the same time i'm afraid that u cant accept me when i do.. so please just give me sometime to sort things out within me, so that noth of us will be able to gain something out of this relationship..
i love you.....

Title: My everything

Author: Classified

Published: 01:37 GMT, Nov 17, 2005

"never knew that i'd be this lucky to share my life with you. you have filled up the emptiness in my heart.. I was already thankful to have you as my friend, but now, no words can explain how grateful I am.. It's something that was unexpected.. I've never opened myself in any relationship, but with you, I'm not going to hold anything back.. i trusted you when we were best friends, so now, I'll trust you even more.. Even in a short while of not seein you is making me missin you soo much.. What have u done to me? =) Even when you msg me, it's not enough.. I want you to be here next to me, holding me.. That's how much you mean to me.. *background music: ALL MY LIFE by KC and JOJO*"

I'm So Glad...
I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You
Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You
More Precious Than You
Deryk You Are..
Close To Me
You're Like My Mother,
Close To Me You're Like My Father,
Close To Me You're Like My Sister,
Close To Me You're Like My Brother
And You Are The Only One My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing....
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby
Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Friend
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You
All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I...That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turned My Life Around,
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
And All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I ..That I Finally Found You
All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too (Fading)
And All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I...
That I Finally Found You.....

" This song, is exactly how I'm feeling for this relationship.. Even though we just got together for 3 days, it's like, I have no words to explain it.. I guess that's how you're spose to feel when you date your friend =) You feel so comfortable, n at some point, weird.. hehehe, coz You're like thinking of how we were before.. But then, the weird part is pushed away because to me, when you held me it was just so comfortable, so right. As much as I want to write the details here about how we were in the car last night, I cant.. =) I'll just keep it in my heart and memory.. and i'm smilin now like a wild idiot again.. I can't wait to see you, Love.. When is 5 o'clock gonna come? Waiting for you, times goes by so slowly, and when I'm with you, it goes to fast.. it's not fair.. I wish for more time.. But I can't wish that much, as I've got the biggest and best wish, and that is YOU.

ps: yes people.. i m bcomin jiwang/ lovey-dovey.. but who cares.. dis entry is how much i love this one person.. n for once i'm not ashamed of sayin this statement, of admitting it.. I love you Deryk, and this entry will always b here to remind me of what i feel for you, of how lucky i m, of how much u mean to me.. everything Yang.. =) "

"I'm surprised at how much humans have moved backwards on the evolutionary chart." - Marilyn Manson

Greetings to all living being and alienated beings, there is no time for me to be updating MSN space for awhile and it has been the same ol' 'effin' page but i will be updating it very soon.

PEAAACE

Deryk

Laterz, peace out and take care... Deryk

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